Imma vent here cause everyone I talk to is asleep rn
I feel like absolute fucking shit lmao I was in a debate competition and the topic was section 377 (for anyone who doesn’t know its the law which criminalized homosexuality in India and was lifted a few months ago) and I was put on the team who was against it and I’m an avid debater and I literally came to that debate to make people see that I had good skills and was a great candidate to be recommended by the teachers when the time comes and I was like OK I’m gonna talk against homosexuality and god I channeled my fucking mother into myself and said so many homophobic things, I bought up conversion therapy and that gay sex is sodomy and shit and the opposing team was fucking shit I could refute all their points easily (they fucking called homosexuality a choice) and now that I’m back home I’m rethinking about everything I said and I feel like fucking shit I feel horrible and its reminding me of everything my mother told me when I tried to tell her I’m gay and this all just made me hate myself more. My fucking college president seemed to agree with my points and that scares the shit out of me cause I do not stand for anything I said but I’m terrified of everyone who was in the room and agreed with me.
Literally people were coming to me and telling me I made them see things differently and that I was gonna win this debate and I was like don’t think differently please support homosexuality those people who were against me in the competition were shit but my stance was more shit please fucking god understand that it was done cause I was in a fucking competition and I’m fucking gay I don’t want being gay to be criminalized again
A similar incident happened with my college debate class. The topic was “Educate women vs don’t educate women” and I was put on the against side. Except I had a different problem from you… my team sucked but the opposite team was good.
So knowing there was no way to say “don’t educate women” without getting beaten up, I had to come up with delicate ways to say it. I brought up the whole “educated women marry and have kids late and having kids late leads to problems” thing and the sexual harassment on the way to school point, TRYING to keep the whole thing civil.
And then someone on my team said that “education makes women arrogant and not respect husbands” and that’s when the whole thing went to screaming, yelling, basically a mess on both sides. In the end we were totally destroyed by the other team.
I think this is something people need to learn in debate club, the wrong statements said the wrong way can turn a civil conversation into a fist fight.
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