melotrauma:

it’s so exhausting to be unable to believe and trust yourself about things. did it really happen like that, or am i overreacting? did that really happen, or am i misremembering? who knows what my sexuality is? not me. who knows what my gender is? not me! am i sure i’m feeling this emotion, or am i faking it? am i really right about my blood sugar, or am i overexaggerating my symptoms? do i really like this person as much as it feels like i do? do i really want to eat this food, or is it an escape? am i really feeling things as strongly as i think i am? won’t someone tell me who i am?